shit I'm fortynine

I had a birthday

feeling old not older

don't feel desirable

I see fat and disgusting in the mirror

I move slower with pain etched on my face

I'm depressed and sexually frustrated

I'm everything I don't want to be

and I lack the ability to change

I seek validation

want to be wanted

needed

seen

right now though

I don't want to be

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